We were told to keep an eye on Charlie’s bilirubin numbers after we were released from the hospital because they were rising and hadn’t peaked yet. At our first pediatrician appointment a week after his birth, he was diagnosed with jaundice and Charlie had to spend 24 hours under bili lights at the hospital. I had trouble breastfeeding and supplemented with formula from birth because I was utterly clueless and unprepared to breastfeed. He was a big baby and he was very hungry, so I was very thankful for formula, especially when my pediatrician recommended supplementing to help treat his jaundice. Supplementing also took the pressure off of me being the only source of nutrition for my baby. One thing my pediatrician told me then has stayed with me to this day:

“Even if your baby gets 2 feedings of breastmilk each day, they’re still getting most of the benefits.”

I don’t know if there is any specific evidence backing this up, but it took so much pressure off of me to exclusively breastfeed, and that’s what I needed at the time. I supplemented with formula the first month of Charlie’s life, gave up breastfeeding around 4 months, and ended up exclusively pumping until 9 months. He got exclusive breastmilk for 8 months of his life, and looking back exclusively pumping was a huge commitment! I was lucky enough to have the flexibility to do it since I worked at home, but I can’t imagine how difficult it is for moms who work outside of the home.

When I had Olive, she had jaundice too, but what my pediatrician told me about breastmilk benefits remained in the back of my mind. Even though I didn’t really have a successful breastfeeding relationship with Charlie, because of what my pediatrician told me, I didn’t put that much pressure on myself. I ended up exclusively breastfeeding Olive until she was 26 months old, and we could easily have gone on much longer as she didn’t want to wean. But if we needed to supplement with formula, I would have been totally fine with that too.

There are so many pressures put on mothers by society, family, and perhaps most, ourselves, especially when it comes to breastfeeding. I wasn’t immune, but now that my kids are almost 6 and 8, I can honestly say I have no regrets about breastfeeding, not breastfeeding, and if I had only formula fed, I would be totally fine with that too.

Did you receive any life changing advice about being a parent?