I recently wrote about the experience I had with Little Bug and group B strep. I got a few responses asking why my doctors/ midwives let me labor at home so long, knowing that I was group B positive, and it really got me thinking about the care I received during both of my pregnancies.

For my first pregnancy, I met with a private care midwife. I had watched The Business of Being Born multiple times and I was fully convinced that I wanted an un-medicated home birth, and there was a woman who came highly recommended in my town. As soon as I had the positive pregnancy test, I contacted her and got an appointment. I met with her twice, then I experienced spotting and ended up back at my regular OB’s office after no response from the midwife. I am glad that I made that decision and I was able to have a d&c quickly after learning that the baby had died. The doctor I saw that delivered the bad news actually hugged me on her way out of the office. I felt like she really cared about me and the baby. With the encouragement of my loss group, I wrote the midwife a letter telling her how hurt I was that no one called me back when I left a message saying that I had experienced a miscarriage. She wrote me back, apologizing, but there was no way I could see her again.

With my second pregnancy, I decided to go with the OB’s office right from the start. I was encouraged to come in early to check for a heartbeat. I felt like they cared about me and I was happy with the choice to go with this practice. That feeling faded at 20 weeks when I was told that we had two complications. I feel like the care really shifted at that point, and I started getting the feeling like they thought I was over worried and therefore crazy. I remember feeling like I needed to apologize for being worried, and thinking of it now, that makes me really furious.

When it came time to deliver, the atmosphere was scary and although I was pretty confident in my midwife, I definitely felt like I was being talked into some things I wouldn’t have agreed to if I hadn’t been so scared. I will never complain about my birth experience, because I still feel like I lucked out big time and I have nothing but positive memories of that. Overall, the care I received was pretty ok, but not great. I don’t think that my midwives were in contact enough with my maternal fetal specialist and that resulted in the abrupt decision to induce at 39 weeks. I still think that if they had just talked with him after our final ok to deliver in the hospital in my town rather than with him, I wouldn’t gone into what I thought was a regular appointment, only to be induced an hour later. I’m not sure how I feel about this.

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With my third pregnancy, I was hell bent on not going to the large OB practice and instead did research to find a smaller practice within my hospital, and I found one. But again, I had some complications early on and I ended up going to see a specific doctor within my regular OB’s office to confirm that they baby was ok. As a result, I decided to stay with the office and I vowed to be more vocal about my needs. I knew what I needed to make it through the pregnancy, but in the back of my mind, I always pictured them being kind of annoyed by me. I am fairly certain that this is not the case, but it’s just the feeling I got at the office.

I had two midwives and two doctors at the practice who were actually really lovely. They listened to me, they were supportive and they allowed me to lose my mind on more than one occasion. However, they often forgot to call me with results, or to follow up with me in regards to appointment questions. I ended up back at the maternal fetal specialist again and there was again a lack of communication between the two offices. I tested positive for strep B again and even with this information, I was told to labor at home for longer than I probably should have. I really can’t decide how I feel about this either because it didn’t negatively impact the birth or the baby, but it really could have.

In all honesty, I felt like I was ignored for a lot of my fears. I was always a little confused as to why these ladies would have gone into this field if they couldn’t be understanding and compassionate about how I was feeling during pregnancy. It was just very confusing to me. I feel like the care I got with the specialists I saw (the MF and the diabetes educator) was outstanding. I cannot say enough good things about both of those offices. And maybe I am being a baby about this, but I just don’t feel great about my overall experience with my OB office. If I were to get pregnant again, I am not sure if I would choose to go with them again.

I guess my point of all of this is that I think people providing care for pregnant women should be compassionate and should understand that it is an extremely stressful and sometimes scary time. I realize that not all pregnant women are terrified, but for those of us that are, it would be so refreshing to have someone listen to our concerns, even if they are a little crazy. I also think that some time should be taken in each appointment to really find out how the patient is feeling. This might make it easier for ladies who are experiencing depression or anxiety during pregnancy to get the help they needed. And that might mean that less women end up with PPD or PPA. If nothing else, if the patient is confident in their care team and feel like they are understanding and and supportive, they might be more apt to seek help during the postpartum period.

Did you have a positive care experience? Was your care team compassionate and understanding?