Charlotte’s newborn hat wouldn’t stay on. They never really do, do they? We were pretty relaxed about it and didn’t make a big deal about it, and I soaked in every tiny detail of her after she was born: her tiny, wrinkly ears, her barely-there eyebrows, and her bright blue eyes. I noticed that her fine hair hair had a bit of a swirl to it, and wondered if she’d have curly hair like Chloe and me. And, I couldn’t help but notice that she had a divot on her head above her left eyebrow.

No one else seemed to notice. I really seemed obsessed with this so-called divot, and not even my husband could see what I was talking about. It looked like a dimple, or maybe a dip, in her head. I couldn’t help but notice the rest of her head was nice and round, but this part was absolutely sloped. It was driving me crazy that no one else could see it. I brought it up with her pediatrician at both in-hospital checks and was brushed off. Our pediatrician didn’t notice anything either, and for the most part I let it go.

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But it was even more noticeable to me when we got Charlotte’s newborn pictures back. I kept talking about it with my husband, and *finally* he could see what I was talking about. I brought it up with our pediatrician at our 4 week well visit and they weren’t worried about it and said her soft spots were nice and open.

I also started to notice that she had a strong preference to nurse on my left side. It almost pained her to nurse from my right breast because she couldn’t turn her head that well, and she’d whine and whimper as if she was in pain. I was growing increasingly concerned, and then I noticed that she had a head tilt in all of her pictures and when laying down. We hadn’t transitioned her to her crib yet and it was glaringly obvious while she was in her rock ‘n play that her head would tilt to the right.

At her 8 week well check, I brought all this back up to our pediatrician. I was very persistent and insisted we get a second opinion. At first, our pediatrician still didn’t “see” the divot on her head that I saw. But I showed her photos of Charlotte’s head that I had taken over time from different angles, and finally she was able to really notice what I meant. Then she was able to see some bossing on Charlotte’s forehead, and noticed that her ears were slightly uneven, and her right cheek was ever so slightly bigger than her left. For reference, she has a 9mm asymmetry – so it’s incredibly minor; it isn’t completely unbelievable that our pediatrician couldn’t see this right away. It really is so slight and I argued with my husband for weeks that this even existed.

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Our pediatrician referred us to the craniofacial center of the children’s hospital and I called the same day to make an appointment. The woman who booked our appointment really made me nervous: she said that we’d meet with a surgeon in case we needed to go the route of helmet therapy and meet with a RN in case we only needed to explore physical therapy. She also explained that it’s possible that over time, Charlotte could outgrow plagiocephaly and torticollis — two things our ped didn’t even discuss with us. It would take us six weeks to be seen with a specialist which was very nerve wracking. I wasn’t sure what steps, if any, we should be taking in the mean time to help correct Charlie’s head tilt, and now we had to wait six more weeks to find anything out.

… To be continued.